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[rebelarrow]

I'll call you back later.

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[helpdesk_hero]

Teaching me to control my psychometry. Even as flawed as my control can be.

[rebelarrow]

You simply needed the groundwork to build your own shield.

[helpdesk_hero]

I know. But I also know what might have become of me if I hadn't had those lessons.

[rebelarrow]

The other world?

[helpdesk_hero]

[So, Judd dealt with it too. David sighs.]

Yeah. The other me went MAD from the power.

[rebelarrow]

I cannot say that I'm entirely surprised.

Psy often lose their sanity when their shields break down, especially with tactile abilities such as Psychometry.








Are you all right now?

[helpdesk_hero]

I went so far off the deep end over there. He went off the deep end. And refused to see it. And in the end, when his death came, he accepted it happily.

I'm... doing better now I guess? I just... realizing that without you I don't know where I'd be.

[rebelarrow]

[That sounds way too much like his old mindset to be comfortable.]

Sometimes when we are as close to something as he was, we are blind to our faults.

[His next text comes a little later, because he will never get used to that sort of praise.]

You did the hard work, David. I merely gave you the tools that you needed.

[helpdesk_hero]

You gave me the chance to live, Judd. I was already overloaded with everything. But the tools have maybe saved my life.

[rebelarrow]

I'm glad that I could help you at all.

I've spent most of my life hurting people--anyone that I can help is precious to me.

[helpdesk_hero]

I don't think I'm cut out to be a tele-anything.

[rebelarrow]

It's simply something new, and overwhelming.

If it helps at all, every day I fear that I will lose my mind and harm those I care about.

[helpdesk_hero]

He self-destructed from those powers, untrained and far too tried. I don't... It's terrifying to have lived his life, from coming here about when I did, and watching him self-destruct and Die. I don't want to remember ANY of that.

[rebelarrow]

Than take it as a warning. It's not something you did. It isn't the path you plan on taking.

[helpdesk_hero]

How come... how come I can't seem to find a SINGLE alternate reality where I'm a good person?

[rebelarrow]

Perhaps it's because you're already living in it.

[helpdesk_hero]

But... doesn't that mean that I am, on some level, inherently given to evil?

[rebelarrow]

I believe most people are inherently given to evil.

This does not mean that everyone is a bad person, or that most people are about to commit a crime at a moment's notice. There's much good in the world, and people that exemplify it.

I simply believe that anyone has the capacity to be pushed into evil. It's why so many Psy harm others when they lose their sanity.

It just means that you stay above all that. You value life, and the cost that it takes to value that life.

[helpdesk_hero]

That's... an interesting way to see it.

Thank you.

[rebelarrow]

When you're ready, I have your next shield lesson prepared. We move on to intermediate work.

[helpdesk_hero]

I'm ready now.

Actually, I'm still a bit emotionally keyed up because of other me. If that's a bad thing then I'll take a day or two of meditation and trying to reground myself in the basics before we get to the lesson. Which is going to be sorely needed soon with all the new materials coming into the house.

[rebelarrow]

Don't rush things.

Meditation helps, but don't forget that your mind and body are one. Go take a long run, or practice martial arts. They help as well.

[helpdesk_hero]

I... my running partner is gone. So is my training partner. I was teaching Peter to fight.

[rebelarrow]

The juvenile at Thanksgiving?

[helpdesk_hero]

Yeah, one and hte same. And I was working with Derek too.